Wednesday, May 29, 2013

lunch breaks with my superhero...

Spending all day inside studying is a lot easier for me when it is winter, ie dark, cold and generally unpleasant.  But it is weeks like this one that make being trapped at a desk seem like punishment.  It is summer time in the southeast and beautiful out.  Not too hot yet and clear blue skys.  I am trying to find balance between studying for my boards and being a new mom.  When I am with Everett I am worried about studying (ok to be honest he makes me smile so much I can easily forget about everything else in the world) and when I am studying I feel like a bad mom.  Right now I get up at 5am and feed him and we play a little.  Then from 8-12pm I study at school.  As soon as 12pm hits I rush home to my smiling little boy and immediately wrap him up in my arms.  I really cant get enough of him.  The lunch hour flies by and then we do it all over again.  Going back to school and leaving him is so hard but I feel so lucky every time I get back home.  Today we sat on the porch and giggled while we practiced our superheroing....

Friday, May 24, 2013

this moment



{this moment} - "A Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember. If you're inspired to do the same, leave a link to your 'moment' in the comments for all to find and see."

happy first mothers day

i woke up mother's day to a squirming everett and the smell of pancakes.  not a bad way to start the day.  my wonderful husband got up early and made mother's day blueberry pancakes, veggie sausage, and homemade whip cream.  our first mother's day was really nice.  although i spent much of the day studying i did get to cuddle with everett in the morning, have a fantastic breakfast and go for a hike with my man.  not a bad way to spend the day.....

beautiful flowers from my wonderful husband


Sweet boy, practicing his smile for mommy:)

my little boxer

first mother's day roses from my sweet little brother


my everett measuring 23in at 6weeks!  growing like a weed...

Saturday, May 11, 2013

this moment




{this moment} - "A Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember. If you're inspired to do the same, leave a link to your 'moment' in the comments for all to find and see."
....but i couldn't pick just one:)

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

wrong amount of knowledge...

As a medical student I know just enough to scare me.  When something seems off I immediately go to worst case.  It seems that part of being an actual doctor means getting to a place where you know when to worry and when to leave well enough alone. My pregnancy happened to coincide perfectly with our reproductive block in school.  We learned about the thousands of things that can go wrong during each of the stages of your babies development and all of the ways your labor can take a turn for the worse.  I would text my husband almost daily during classed in a complete panic begging for another ultrasound.  Yes, I said another because I had insisted on several.  For example, a babies intestines spend several weeks growing outside of the stomach and at about 10weeks when there is enough room for them go back into the stomach hopefully that is what they do.  SO at 10weeks I had to make sure that our little ones intestines were exactly where they were supposed to be.  Thomas said ultrasounds were supposed to be a fun exciting event but he would spend the entire time stressed because he knew I was inspecting every inch of our baby for something to be wrong.  I would count vertebra, and ventricles, look at heart valves and chambers and still no peace of mind.  When Everett was born I cannot even begin to describe to relief to see his perfect little form.  Growing a person is an unbelievable thing.  There are countless ways for things to go wrong that are completely out of our control and only one way for them to all go right... and they do!  Most of the time everything goes exactly as it should and this still blows my mind.  So today when our sitter casually mentioned that Everett had not really had a good bowel movement my mind immediately went to the various forms of GI obstruction that occur in newborns.  So far Everett has been the king of bowel movements, for him to go most of the day without one is unusual.  I had to fight the urge to call a friend who is one of the best pediatric critical care docs I know and insist on abdominal imaging.  Luckily I made no such call because with a huge grin Everett filled his pants like a champ.  Leave it to my boy for his first real big smile to be a "haha mom here is that poop you wanted!"  Hopefully someday I will have enough knowledge to know when not to worry....

Here are some pictures of us working on our smile. Sorry they are a little fuzzy we were too excited about our farts to stay still!





Saturday, May 4, 2013

this moment

{this moment} - "A Friday ritual. A single photo - no words - capturing a moment from the week. A simple, special, extraordinary moment. A moment I want to pause, savor and remember. If you're inspired to do the same, leave a link to your 'moment' in the comments for all to find and see."